this kind of weather can kill somebody
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I'm in Moscow. Let's forget that I was in states. Now I'm here. sitting on the bed. looking at the window. and the weather is just shitty. heavy cold rain.wind. and grey-grey-grey sky. I did nothing serious today. and don't want to do anything. when i was sleeping- i had a dream. i almost lived the whole day in a dream- had all conversations i could have, met people i's supposed to meet. degradation. i can change everything, but have no desire.
this weekends i'll go home, to see my family. next week i have all this exams. i have a lot of work to do - probably they will fire me,hm? i need smth to "cheer me up". hah.
my man make me feel like a woman. and it's great. but sometimes Libra starts to think about wrong things. Like:"what it would be like if i went to the bridge, on Park Gorkogo and jump?hm? like in this russian movie "mermaid" (watch it!)"To be honest, the only thing that keeps from it now- parents. mother. and i remember Kate words, when we were in 10th grade, walking from Lovers' Bridge- she told me exactly this phrase. Parents. Then I couldn't understand- how it could be. Young, beatiful - all this love stories ahead. Probably, now I feel in a different way she felt about jumping from the bridge, but the same thing(my family) keeps me from it. Why do i want to do it? or even think about it? sometimes things seem to be complicated. and it looks like you took to much for yourself. and you can't left anything- job or studies or love or friendship. and you lying on the bed. looking at the grey window. waiting for bright thought to come to your head. motivation. or call. but i switched of the phone. nobody can reach me now.
i had a calm birthday with girls who i love and man who makes me feel happy. now i'm 21. this "1" after 2 makes me older. it says "you're big girl now. you have to be good girl. responsible. now you're not child. you can even legally drink in the us. and all decisions you make - are yours.and you can build or ruin your life by yourself".
it's a kind of crisis. small global crisis in my head. i need crisis management in here, hey guuuuys!

tomorrow will be better,i'm sure. even if they fire me, my man think i'm crazy and i couldn't pass exam...i'll do smth. but i'll not jump from the bridge.i love my mam,and dad, and brother. and you guys. sorry for this mood) 

Long story)
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Hi there)
Still alive, still smiling, still not bored. These are the only "still"s in my life right now. And I hope that it's not a diagnosis, but a coincidence. What's happened to me? a long story as usual)
1) My happy life "for free" in the hostel was ended by myself more than 3 weeks ago. Why? you need to know pre-history. Loftstel is really cool hostel to spend there night-two-week (25$ per night and you have clean sheets, friendly roommates from all over the world and a lot of fun at nights). But it's really pricy to stay over there for month or two. This kind of thoughts made all the russians and ukranians left that place. So, 2 floors of 4-floor building became empty. And management decided to close this hostel due to its economical enefficiency. They suggested me to stay and work in another one, but unfortunately (or fortunately) I coudn't work at the time I was supposed. So wa had no choice but to say goodbye to each other. I left the place. But the funny thing that when I'm on Brighton Beach, I always meet one guy, hi's lifeguard from hostel. So, the connection still exists.

2) What could I do without place to live? Try to find another one. I stayed for 3 nights at Nadya's and Timur room, tiny room, too tiny for 3 of us. And I even didn't have time to search for room to rent - 12 hours on work every day. When I moved out from the hostel it was raining(the fact is that it always raining when don't need it at all) I was standing at the bus stop, waiting for the bus. And a couple of taxists were trying to give me a ride, but... i had no money and desire, to be honest. Anyway it was raining hard and one of them agreed to drove me for free. We talked. Occasionally he was offering a room, The great one. Huge, with fantastic bed (after 2 month sleeping in bunk beds, matrasses good bed means a lot). What could I do? Took my friends with me, he showed us the room and saw, that I'm not alone in the city. (I wanted him to see that somebody will try to find me just in case if I disappear)))And I moved in. It was good area. In Brooklyn,5 minutes from subway (Ditmas ave, F train). Area, filled with russians, polish and indian/pakistanian. The good thing about russians areas- good&cheap foodmarkets, which smells like in Russia, with nature. It was reaaly good room - I even slept enoug and felt good! But my happiness was rather short. one week. I almost didn't see my landlord- I was sleeping when he was working. He is Jew, was born in Azerbaijan, grown up in Ukrain. He's divorced with his wife and has a 15-years old son. He loves himmost of all. And one evening he told me. "Liza, my son is jelous. You have to move out tomorrow.Sorry. I felt pity about you and your situation, but my son is much more important for me." What could I do? Moved out. And made some conclusions. Never ever make somebody to do smth for you because they feel pity. Deal, only deal. Where could I moved? To Nadya) I don't know what would I dO, If I hadn't got my ready-tohelp-friends in here. I would be more serious. Probably)
3) New searches. You know, it's not easy to find a place to live for 3 weeks in NYC for reasonable price, when you're alone. My ex-landlord Carlos offered me to liv in the basement, but it was basement, not place to live. I'm a human being. I was looking for appartments even in Manhattan- met a good guy, he was looking for roommates. Here everybody works for themselves. And trying to survive. Struggle. But the price for the appartments was to big. I was reaaly disappointment - time passed, I was sleeping with my friends. It couldn't last forever. I was so tired of movings in-out that was ready to live in the hostel again (funny-hah?), To have your own spot and stable place to live which doesn't depend on smbd's mood. Deal. And the help arrived from where it wasn't expected- from ex-ex roommate, Narcizo. We was talking after my unsuccessful searches and he told about his friend, who is looking for a tenant for a short term. Everything was decided in 10 minutes. At 11,30 pm) The next day I was wathcing the room. The good one. Great location! Across the street - Prospect park. It's Brooklyn's equivalent to Central park. Yesterday I was jogging finally! Joined to these crowds of people who're jogging, riding bicycles, stratching on the green soft grass of the NY's parks) And you know- it's fantastic. To run, And to think about...nothing, But point of destination)
My new landlord is from India, his nickname is Babi,he is massagist, was clothes designer, but economic crises touhed him and he lost his job. very friendly and generous. Gave me airconditioning and lamp - and I don't need anything else) The summer in this city is hot-hot-hot and humid-humid-humid. Fortunately, I spent the worst time of the day in the building, talking to tourist and walking in the evenings)
2 days ago walked into the great gift-shop - "the memories of broadway". Really good souvenirs, gorgeous owner.- originally Georgian, grown up in Italy, spent last 20 years in NY.
Now I feel myself in the Big Apple. This city is gorgeous and unique. It's Babilon, but the diffference is that people want to understand each other and they are succeded. All the best from all over the world. You can find here everything. Meet everybody. People come here to became somebody. Here you are surrounded by steel, water, sky and grass even if you don't feel it sometimes. You can seat wherever you want - nobody care. But if you fall from bicycle- everybody'll want to help you. And...accent doesn't matter- cause everybody came here sometime ago. And was foriegner. For a couple of years. But then he became a new yorker.
I would advice you taste this city. Brooklyn, Manhattan, parks, oceanshores. Coffeshops, streets, clubs, theatres, parks...Freedom. which doesn't hurt)

Now I planning travellings. on august 20 or even earlier I'll leave this place- CHicago, San-Francisco, Grand Canyon. Probably Washington....And I'll be at home in a month!!!!! Moscow, be ready)


Should I stay in here?
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Mmmm,... too big breaks between notes. Many news to tell about)
I still live in a hostel with Americans, Serbians, Ukranians&Russians and sometimes French, Libanon, Romanian. Mexicans) I have no salary at this place - it's my home (free of charge home))) They have some parties, sometimes they drink, sometimes they smoke, but they are always friendly)
Annnd I found a job!!!! Actually I was one leg in the big, big crisis. I had an acquantace, who promised me a good place. to work like a promoter in the showroom, But... It happens that we couldn't be "just friends". And I found out that could just turn around and go away from potential employeer without any words. And I'm not sorry about $18 dollars per hour. I'm only sorry  about time I spent on this person. How do these girls live, who always lives for somebody's elses account? You're so dependent and...feeling like prostitute. So, I finally realised that this kind of life is not for me... And I went to an employment agency (thanks to Anya and Kirill), paid them $25 and said:" Do whatever you want, I'm ready to wark as pizzamaker, I'm tired of being temporarly employed." Fortunately of unfortunately they don't help to find a job for people who want to be a waitresses or bussers or....They can help you to start a great career in the USA like a housekeeper or salesperson. So, I choose the second option and had a couple of interviews...But I got a job after a call-interview! I couldn't believe it. I was talking to a man for 20 minutes, tryong to make him believe that I'm grreat person, moreover - 20years old, polite, good-looking russian girl. And finaly - that this gorgeous girl is going to stay in NY forever. He told me to come to the training in 30 minutes. I  did it. The work is - in tourist service. You book the shuttle busses/taxis/private cars for guests of the hotel, give them directions, book tickets for broadway shows and talking-talking-talking....Salary varieis, but I had already had my first training-money (it happens yesterday when I have last 7 dollars in the pocket and was thinkning about how I'll ask somebody to swipe a card in the subway for me)- miracle again!) and going to work hard-hard-hard. 12 hours a day. 45 minutes break. People-peolpe-people)
And I want to go to any Broadwayshow and what is better - offbroadway (like stomp or la guerda).
And...i feel good)
And i'm done with work for today!)
Tomorrow i'll have a training for "tickets-buyers")))
I'm deeply in love with the city...

New epoch
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Ufff)
I wasn't in here for a long-long time. Now I have completely different life. 
First of all, I changed apartments - now I live in the hostel, like Resident Assistant. http://www.loftstel.com/nyc/
So, if somebody needs a bed for a night - I can help you) I live here for free, doing some managers' work - checking people in/out, keeping area clean, help guests with their problems. It's interesting! I'm not paid for this, but 1)- it's great experience (to live with 10-30 guys from all over the world and don't let them to ruin the building) 2) a lot of new people (it's so funny to seat with 4 people around you and trying to talk to everybody and be attentive) 3) you sleep less and feel vitality (that's what I always want). 
Yesterday 3 boys and me cleaned the 2nd floor - kitchen, restroom, living-room. About 3 days ago there where a lot of russian-ukrainian students over here, but they moved and left mountains of dirty dishes and trash. We took out about 3 huge trash bags! And this is really pity to see that our people live like this. And make people around believe that every russian are the same. Drink a lot, crazy... Trying to do my best.
What else's happened? Vika&Marin came and went to San-Francisco. Hot summer's come. We spent 2 days on the beach - one day with Nadya, on Brighton beach, on Sunday I was on Rockaway. Nadya became pink - she has white skin. And we both have tan, with the white stripes of our shorts, because we were walking closely to ocean. Water in it is frizzy, but when it's really hot outside - you have no choice but swim) Rockaway - is one of the best places I've ever been. Paradise could look like this place. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:ConeyislandNASA.jpg Previously it was a kind of military base, and it was opened for not so long. So even now you can feel the spirit of 60th years, even though I didn't know how it was like, I just watched the movies. The time's stopped over there. All you see - dunes, waves, sun, rare grass, harmony. You can seat over there for a long-long time just watching the ocean and seagulls. 
What else we did? Timur, Nadya's boyfriend come. So, we had to celebrate it. We made it in American way - bought pizza and cola. Everybody wanted to sleep, but it was our duty - to say hello to America in this way) Also we were watching movie in the Bryant Park. A lot of people were seating right on the lawn at 8 pm, Around 9 movie started. It was the old one, about depression in US. Very current)
I feel in NY like at home....


First money)
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News! Last weekends had first work experience in the US for this year. on Saturday was hostess, on Sunday - server at the party. I liked the second one much more. A lot of different duties, good DJ, funny people around. Everybody is happy around, there were no drunk people. I was working for 7 hours, stood with champaigne, walked with heavy, really heavy trays and smiled) They gave me suit, white gloves and a tie! If you saw americans movies - I was like waitresses, who were supposed to be serious, professional and polite) Good experience, not bad money and part-time job,,, If you don't want to work hard but want to have some money to exist - this is what you need.
Today I'll check possibility to move to florida for the next 2 month. Hope it'll happen. All I need - money for ticket) If I'm not mistaken, my summer will like I want it to be)
Yesterday was on Brooklyn Bridge - one of the best place in here. Anytime, any weather - perfect. When you see the lights of the city, lights in the water, lights in the sky and the bridge...it's like in a modern fairy tale. But be careful! watch your way or you'll die! there are a lot of dangerous bicyclists there. They cry, and beep and light - but they ride tooo fast. I warned you) 

Saturday evening at home
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Yes!Saturday evening in NY I'm going to spend in the appartments. It's raining outside and pretty cold. Using our rommate's computer  - have some time to write. So...Today I've had first workday. Hostess in a turkish restaurant. Actually, it was a kind of training- i've never been hostess. The owner liked my appearance, to be honest, and he thinks that I, standing outside the restaurant, will attract people from the street to try delicious kebab or roasted eggplants) I thought that would' be happy to have this job, but...it's really boring, Probably, the reason is that it was raining all the day - no many guests, no staff to do. My respopnsibilities- to meet guests with smile, give them a seat and say them "have a great day", when they're living. Brrrr....not this time) I'll look for smth more interesting. For example, tomorrow will work at a party like a server, 10$ per hour, cash right after finishing. We'll see)
Today, before work I took a bicycle and rode to the ocean  - fantastic! If tomorroow is  good morning - will swim) Do you remember my lifeguard form, hah?) Yesterday walked with Nadya to the ocean too, in the evening - gorgeous. Were sitting on the lifeguard's chairs. It's llike in the cinema. You see plane's lights everywhere like flashes or falling stars. Ocean and sky are of the same colour, the sound is...It's better than any movie I see. Ocean)
I promised to myself that would write at least 1 funny thing about the USA.
So...sometimes I use MTA - buses. It's crasy when young women take a bus for only one stop! 2-3 blocks - 3 minutes walking!
Walk, please!

Looking through free events in NYC. A lot of them! booked  tickets for students musical and will go to a coule of lections in Brooklyn Public Library (modern art). TimeOutNY! Don't seat near your computer if you can go out! What about me- gonna read comics about iranian girl in europe, eat shrimps whith rommate(he cooked - and just came to me and told"food is ready"!), and watch dvd i think with him. Saturday evening at home)

Miss my friends)

waiting for calls
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Siting in friend's apartments on avenue U, in Brooklyn, checking e-mail, waiting for calls of people who want to hire me! Yesterday was on 3 interviews. 2 - waitresses, 1 - ice-cream salesperson (ha-ha, I understood that what I would like to sell - ice-cream. Good hand-made ice-cream or gelato (italian name of ice-cream). I just thought about it - and saw an advertisement. Was on the Chelsea market yesterday - big market and(it sounds funny) , creative one. It seems like a lot of designers were working to make it so cozy and eye-catching. http://chelseamarket.com/ - look trough!
And there was a great line of applicants for one position. About 50 people. Different ages, skin color, sex, clothes. Looking for a job. Probably this is crises in the US - when people stay in the queue to apply for a job. In this case crises affects (effects?) me. But you know, ice-cream they sell worth it. I mean it's so TASTY!!! they (italians) made it in the basement. And I tested pistacchio ad pepper one. Great, delicious! About 2 days ago my friend asked me what do I like most of all in the world? (not whom). The first idea I had - ice-cream))) But my boyfriend told me: "Are you gonna be 2-meters KOLOBOK  after working with ice-cream?"))))Not! I'm not!
What do we eat? For thus moment the best breakfast for us is rice&eggs&tuna. Have you ever tried it? Tasty, non-fat, fills you) And we eat apples,and drink water, and eat Chinese food, and sometimes go to Deli (to buy food on weight - cheap and tasty!)
What I understood. If you met a person and at first sight liked it and feel that you can trust him/her - it's better to trust. but be careful, my dear!)

Have to go.
Still alive! 

news from chinatown
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Hi guys)
i'm still alive. i'm still in NY. Still happy)now - somewhere in Chinatown. Have a couple of interviews in here. What's going on? I'm without a job, BUT we (with Nadya) rented a room in Sheepsheadbay ( it's not far from Brighton Beach). It's a small room in 2floors house. Our neighbors are man from Venezuela (his name Narcizo))) and girl from Bangladesh (Samia). Both of them speak English fluently (good for us)). So, we have place where to sleep and to eat. Now all we need- place to work. Probably, this is how crisis looks like - when nobody needs waitresses) They take our numbers, they wish us good luck, then even give us application forms - but... no results. Should we wait? I applied for Classical Music Festival internship - it would be so great to combine july and classical music) if the give me place to sleep and food to eat - I'm ready to work!
Meanwhile, i'm in NY! Yesterday I went to the beach by bicycle - 20 minutes and you can hear ocean, see huge sky and fell salty wind on your face. All money I'm spending at the moment are nothing if you can fell this. To see the lights of the ships and to feel happy loneliness)
The great thing is that I've already met Chingiz (my friend, we was working 2 years ago at the entertainment park) and today I'm going to meet with Kirill (we were lifeguards and roommates) in August 2007) To live in NY it's like to live in Moscow - almost all roads go through this city)
New friend borrowed me a bicycle for a week, 2 great speakers - and life is much more better)

Will try to write more, because there is things about I'd like to write)

Liz

Friend's come!
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 It's me again. I'm still alive. Today is the great day - last night Nadya, my friend landed in NYC, LaGuardia Airport. Finally! What does it mean? Now I'm not alone. We are together. Looking for apartments to rent... And it's funny, but now I want to live in a place that 2 weeks ago made me sick  - Brighton Beach. Because there is an illusion of safety over there and Russians nearby... Even though one of the most important reasons for me to be in US right now - to improve English, to meet internationals, to see different life - I' m just afraid to live somewhere else.

So, we spent a night in the airport, because Nadya's baggage was lost somewhere and we had to wait for the morning to pick it up. It was obvious, that we couldn't find comfortable place to live - so we shared seats with other passengers who was waiting for their flights. We had a great conversation with American, who was born in Brasilia. Cute guy, open-minded, wanted to learn more about Russia. Was very surprised to know that Russia has both European and  Asian part, but was informed about russian tennis's players very well. We spoke about Russian-Georgian conflict, about information wars, about what places are worth seeing in US. The fact that approves my trip over here for 100% - is possibility to talk to people from everywhere). We were talking till 5 am, when he had to go for his plane.We also said "goodbye" to girl Nadya met in her plane. Another great thing about US is that you can meet a lot of great people who are fond of traveling and spending great time in a short period of time from everywhere. Your surrounding expands very quickly.
We slept for 2-3 hours on the chairs in the airport which were made  for non-sleeping purposes) But sometimes all you need to feel great - a couple hours of a rest and feeling that you're in a place when you ARE to be. Are you?

Hope that tomorrow we'll be already rent apt..

We really need support...

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 Hi to everyone!
Hope that you'll understand what I'm talking about in here - i'm not a great English speaker(keep it in mind)!!!) I like to write about world around. especially if it interesting. and it is! And i'm sure, that there is a couple of people who are interested in my life, so... it's just easier to write here what's going on in my world and your world (sometimes these worlds cross each other).
Right now I'm in US. To be more correct - 767 Fifth Avenue, NY! And it's not an adv of Apple Store) here they have free internet access, so I use is quite regularly. What the hell am i doing in here? hah... writing note, which is supposed to become daily one) in addition i'm looking for a job through internet, checking my e-mail and standing... (there is no chairs in here, otherwise everybody could spend hours in here). But we, Russians, are those who can stay for hours if service is free. Russian great "halyava"...)))
I'm in US for 3 months on exchange program, "work and travel USA". I've already spend 1 week in NY and it seems that I'm going to stay in this city for a while. Actually, I've found a kind of part-time job, in an event staff company, which provides others with servers for different types of events, catering, etc. Hope, that my first workday we'll be on Saturday - I'll tell you what it's like)
Now I live in Queens, at new friend's apartment. He's Frank. And I couldn't imagine that it would be possible to stay in NY for free for one week. But it happens. We met at Bryant Park, while I's living in hostel, met a couple of times and,,,he was ready to help me. Now I sleep in his living room and use his PC. He just help me. You MUST be sceptic about it, but I'm OK. We agreed that I'll pay him when I find a job.
How do my days go? I spent them half on job search, half- on sightseeing. And it's not just  museums, or monuments, or usual tourist places. It's city!!! To be honest, I'm in a great love with this city...
Now I have to go. Wish me good luck!

p.s. you're my first readers!!!))))
thank you for attention and patience)
 

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